Sunday, March 1, 2009
#44,
1609,
0103
CURRENTLY: -BOREDOM-
WHOAAA ITS MARCH ALREADY! actually didnt want to post but
1) stacia requested to
2) its been a long long time yeah
3) bored, dont want to do math reflections
SO YA!
hmm school has been far from okay so far with all the academic, council and wushu stuff and guess what comps is in less than a month! GG. so i must really really get right and get back! truthfully speaking, i have never enjoyed wushu and given it so much enthusiasm and concern till like now. uh regrets!
and oh ya my table mate in chin so yeah we dont alot of funny stuff in class. (its her, not me!) hahaha like critique jilaoshi's red hot heels, talk about the dubious relationship between dearest mr mac and mr jones and have a good laugh altogether with the JW (jingwen!) and the cheery gang behind us. (shucks is this sentence too long? recently mrs ting have commented on my long and too-many-ideas-strung-into-one sentence. quite depressing yeah, must add oil for english! i thought it was only my chinese which cmi! oh greattt ): )
yeah so the languages arent nice to me this year and so i got to do something! like proofread my work before i hand in. reduce all the grammars and errors in sentence structure!
math's a... hmm 80% grueling subject. practices and concepts! but ms Li taught it well! at least i understand some parts and is able to get on with lesson most of the time. SORRY I'M NOT A BRIGHT STUDENT!
council is a bit more relaxed for senior term yeah, and thank God my juniors are rather cooperative and nice ^^ batch 09 and 10! (:
actually what pastor said today made a lot of sense. well he always makes sense but this time i can relate to it! well, talking about prayer, i think i have taken it as a ritual rather than a relationship. always skipping prayer after reading a chapter of the bible, promising to pray in the morning but always fail to. how does God feel? i've never thought about that.
more often than not i think about how life sucks and why am i even doing all this. i feel desolated, unloved, so alone. but doesnt God feel worse? i think this is the way he is trying to get across to me, letting me know how it feels when i neglect God in my life. he feels even worse. i am his child, and HE IS MY FATHER.
and personally i dont think crying is wrong. its just a relief in itself. dont lie and say none of you cry at night in your pillows. i do. i cry over small stuff, big stuff, and just cry myself to sleep. but of course nowadays i'm soooo tired i just hit the sack. CRY TO HIM, CRY TO GOD. once, i felt really depressed and cried to him, telling him how i felt. its like a child crying to his father. HE IS MY COMFORTER.
and its not just crying, even sharing deepest, (darkest) secrets, well he already knows them all, but this sharing further strengthens the bond. everytihng under the sun. and theres this verse in the bible which says sth like he stores your tears in a bottle. does he not know your misery and fears? HE IS MY BEST FRIEND.
i think its a good way to start the day off by greeting our father in heaven, by praying for a good day, or rather, a day, good or bad, just one in which his presence wil be greatly felt.i plug into the christian songs in my playlists, esp amazing grace which reminds me of how i am saved and bondage/worries-free and 'who am i' by casting crowns. it gets me a little more optimistic while coping with the monday blues.
so i shall, and i am going to, take this seriously, and re-evaluate my priorities again. HE SHOULD BE THE FOCUS OF EVERYTHING I DO.
"PRAYER--YOUR LIFE DEPENDS ON IT"!
1609,
0103
CURRENTLY: -BOREDOM-
WHOAAA ITS MARCH ALREADY! actually didnt want to post but
1) stacia requested to
2) its been a long long time yeah
3) bored, dont want to do math reflections
SO YA!
hmm school has been far from okay so far with all the academic, council and wushu stuff and guess what comps is in less than a month! GG. so i must really really get right and get back! truthfully speaking, i have never enjoyed wushu and given it so much enthusiasm and concern till like now. uh regrets!
and oh ya my table mate in chin so yeah we dont alot of funny stuff in class. (its her, not me!) hahaha like critique jilaoshi's red hot heels, talk about the dubious relationship between dearest mr mac and mr jones and have a good laugh altogether with the JW (jingwen!) and the cheery gang behind us. (shucks is this sentence too long? recently mrs ting have commented on my long and too-many-ideas-strung-into-one sentence. quite depressing yeah, must add oil for english! i thought it was only my chinese which cmi! oh greattt ): )
yeah so the languages arent nice to me this year and so i got to do something! like proofread my work before i hand in. reduce all the grammars and errors in sentence structure!
math's a... hmm 80% grueling subject. practices and concepts! but ms Li taught it well! at least i understand some parts and is able to get on with lesson most of the time. SORRY I'M NOT A BRIGHT STUDENT!
council is a bit more relaxed for senior term yeah, and thank God my juniors are rather cooperative and nice ^^ batch 09 and 10! (:
actually what pastor said today made a lot of sense. well he always makes sense but this time i can relate to it! well, talking about prayer, i think i have taken it as a ritual rather than a relationship. always skipping prayer after reading a chapter of the bible, promising to pray in the morning but always fail to. how does God feel? i've never thought about that.
more often than not i think about how life sucks and why am i even doing all this. i feel desolated, unloved, so alone. but doesnt God feel worse? i think this is the way he is trying to get across to me, letting me know how it feels when i neglect God in my life. he feels even worse. i am his child, and HE IS MY FATHER.
and personally i dont think crying is wrong. its just a relief in itself. dont lie and say none of you cry at night in your pillows. i do. i cry over small stuff, big stuff, and just cry myself to sleep. but of course nowadays i'm soooo tired i just hit the sack. CRY TO HIM, CRY TO GOD. once, i felt really depressed and cried to him, telling him how i felt. its like a child crying to his father. HE IS MY COMFORTER.
and its not just crying, even sharing deepest, (darkest) secrets, well he already knows them all, but this sharing further strengthens the bond. everytihng under the sun. and theres this verse in the bible which says sth like he stores your tears in a bottle. does he not know your misery and fears? HE IS MY BEST FRIEND.
i think its a good way to start the day off by greeting our father in heaven, by praying for a good day, or rather, a day, good or bad, just one in which his presence wil be greatly felt.i plug into the christian songs in my playlists, esp amazing grace which reminds me of how i am saved and bondage/worries-free and 'who am i' by casting crowns. it gets me a little more optimistic while coping with the monday blues.
so i shall, and i am going to, take this seriously, and re-evaluate my priorities again. HE SHOULD BE THE FOCUS OF EVERYTHING I DO.
"PRAYER--YOUR LIFE DEPENDS ON IT"!
12:00 AM;
Friday, January 2, 2009
RANDOM PICTURES!
GOT CHINA & SINGAPORE!
GOT CHINA & SINGAPORE!
11:59 PM;
Friday, December 26, 2008
#42,
1421,
2712
CURRENTLY: FEELING THE URGE TO POST PICTURES! SO I SHALL.
YEAH I KNOW THIS IS RANDOM, this is what happens when daddy and mommy's not at home and i've got to much time in my hands, so much that i dont bother to spent it on homework (:
lets see, i shall upload some pictures from china that are still in my phone!
shucks daddy's back.
LATER!
1421,
2712
CURRENTLY: FEELING THE URGE TO POST PICTURES! SO I SHALL.
YEAH I KNOW THIS IS RANDOM, this is what happens when daddy and mommy's not at home and i've got to much time in my hands, so much that i dont bother to spent it on homework (:
lets see, i shall upload some pictures from china that are still in my phone!
shucks daddy's back.
LATER!
10:13 PM;
#41,
1413,
2712
CURRENTLY: DOING NOTHING, ALTHOUGH SOMETHING HAS TO BE DONE
ahhh yay! youth camp tmr! EXCITEDDDD~ havent packed though, should start soon yeah! heh heh ;] EMILIA you 'd better go!! ahahha up to you la.
hmm was a naughty girl again. finished 《左耳》 at 3am then slept till 12 noon today. no alarms. heh heh, shuang! finally finished both zuoer books! ending abit abrupt but still okay. wapiang she keeps changing boyfriends until i read also confused already. -.-
gonna start on wallace and a mermaid (chinese) after i am done with my IH SEQ! okay i shant be bad and read the book before doing urgent stuff, if not its not going to get done! ;[
facebook's getting fun recently, with all the new applications i added hahaha. i love TRACK! hes the cutest pet i've ever seen. okay i know i'm over-reacting. oops. and i cant seem to get money!cant buy pretty clothes and furniture without money leh. ;[ and TRACK always loses in races ;[ so disappointing yeah.
uhhhh holidays coming to an end, bit sad but well no choice!
byebye 2008,
hello 2009!
1413,
2712
CURRENTLY: DOING NOTHING, ALTHOUGH SOMETHING HAS TO BE DONE
ahhh yay! youth camp tmr! EXCITEDDDD~ havent packed though, should start soon yeah! heh heh ;] EMILIA you 'd better go!! ahahha up to you la.
hmm was a naughty girl again. finished 《左耳》 at 3am then slept till 12 noon today. no alarms. heh heh, shuang! finally finished both zuoer books! ending abit abrupt but still okay. wapiang she keeps changing boyfriends until i read also confused already. -.-
gonna start on wallace and a mermaid (chinese) after i am done with my IH SEQ! okay i shant be bad and read the book before doing urgent stuff, if not its not going to get done! ;[
facebook's getting fun recently, with all the new applications i added hahaha. i love TRACK! hes the cutest pet i've ever seen. okay i know i'm over-reacting. oops. and i cant seem to get money!cant buy pretty clothes and furniture without money leh. ;[ and TRACK always loses in races ;[ so disappointing yeah.
uhhhh holidays coming to an end, bit sad but well no choice!
byebye 2008,
hello 2009!
10:05 PM;
Sunday, December 21, 2008
40,
1652,
2112
CURRENTLY: BORED
havent been posting for very long yeah. and recently playing pet society! track's cute lehhh hahah my pet, but i am broke la.
tmr and the day after got trg, luckily in the morning, afternoon trgs arent as appealing.
parents went away with the committee to malacca till tmr night, leaving josh and i at home, boring leh. but still in the midst of reading a book, whoa the font so small, chinese some more, but the story is nice......awww.
HOMEWORK'S GONNA GET ME DOWN SOMETIME. SHUCKS,,,
next week sch's starting and hw not done yetttt books not bought ;[ haiyaaaaa.
1652,
2112
CURRENTLY: BORED
havent been posting for very long yeah. and recently playing pet society! track's cute lehhh hahah my pet, but i am broke la.
tmr and the day after got trg, luckily in the morning, afternoon trgs arent as appealing.
parents went away with the committee to malacca till tmr night, leaving josh and i at home, boring leh. but still in the midst of reading a book, whoa the font so small, chinese some more, but the story is nice......awww.
HOMEWORK'S GONNA GET ME DOWN SOMETIME. SHUCKS,,,
next week sch's starting and hw not done yetttt books not bought ;[ haiyaaaaa.
5:43 AM;
Monday, December 15, 2008
#39,
1757,
1512
CURRENTLY: LOGGING INTO FACEBOOK
13/12:
FIRST DAY OF RETURN
woohooo although i miss China like alot alot i think 3 months of missing singapore, my friends and family outweighs it all.
ashley and stacia stayed overnight, and in the morning we went to woodlands for food sampling and ordered snacks oh did i type this in already?
anyway, then after that went vivo for lunch and shopped at esprit, apparently aunt dorothy got 40% discount yeah but i did no purchase. then finally we made a trip to the airport to pick josh, rachel and the others up, hahha a lot of jokes retold.
14/12:
SECOND DAY OF RETURN
sunday! church day! went to the doctor's in the morning and got 5 day MC. got welcomed by them in church and yay got a box of danish cookies from emilia ;] so sweet thankyou!! :D after that we did caroling practice, which was fun but rather tiring. uh and lastly we went to j8 for dinner and haagen daaz fondue! yum yum.
15/12:
THIRD DAY OF RETURN
which is today, yeah, basically the routine stuff. woke up at 8 plus, ate breakfast and started math. stayed at home the whole day, and slept afternoon nap for awhile.
missed council camp and chalet ;[ maybe going to send rachel for tuition afterwards at TLL while doing math AGAIN. cant seem to figure the last part out though. whoa, brain degradation.
got to go to grandma's for dinner like now, but yeah oh well. missed her food!
1757,
1512
CURRENTLY: LOGGING INTO FACEBOOK
13/12:
FIRST DAY OF RETURN
woohooo although i miss China like alot alot i think 3 months of missing singapore, my friends and family outweighs it all.
ashley and stacia stayed overnight, and in the morning we went to woodlands for food sampling and ordered snacks oh did i type this in already?
anyway, then after that went vivo for lunch and shopped at esprit, apparently aunt dorothy got 40% discount yeah but i did no purchase. then finally we made a trip to the airport to pick josh, rachel and the others up, hahha a lot of jokes retold.
14/12:
SECOND DAY OF RETURN
sunday! church day! went to the doctor's in the morning and got 5 day MC. got welcomed by them in church and yay got a box of danish cookies from emilia ;] so sweet thankyou!! :D after that we did caroling practice, which was fun but rather tiring. uh and lastly we went to j8 for dinner and haagen daaz fondue! yum yum.
15/12:
THIRD DAY OF RETURN
which is today, yeah, basically the routine stuff. woke up at 8 plus, ate breakfast and started math. stayed at home the whole day, and slept afternoon nap for awhile.
missed council camp and chalet ;[ maybe going to send rachel for tuition afterwards at TLL while doing math AGAIN. cant seem to figure the last part out though. whoa, brain degradation.
got to go to grandma's for dinner like now, but yeah oh well. missed her food!
1:49 AM;
Saturday, December 13, 2008
#38,
0033,
1312
CURRENTLY: -SAME-
yes, i know i arent listening to my mom. awhile. emo.
YOU'RE GOING AWAY AGAIN.
WHEN YOU JUST CAME BACK.
WHEN I JUST CAME BACK.
I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I MISS YOU ALOT ALOT.
WE WONT HAVE MANY CHANCES NEXT YEAR ALREADY.
I FEEL UNCERTAIN TOO, MAYBE YOU'LL CHANGE.
MAYBE YOU'RE ALREADY CHANGING.
I THOUGHT IT WAS A SIMPLE REQUEST BUT I DONT KNOW.
YOU'RE LEAVING NEXT WEEK AND IDK WHEN YOU'RE COMING BACK AGAIN.
HOLS ENDING, AND WE'RE NEVER GONNA GET TO GO OUT PROPERLY.
SUDDENLY I WISH THAT WE WERE LIKE BEFORE, WHEN WE WERE TOGETHER FOR ALMOST EVERYDAY.
HOPE ALL TURNS OUT WELL.
Falling leaves like a blanket at my feet
There’s a canopy of stars and I just miss you like crazy
Suddenly the world’s too big
And the hours move too slow and I just wish that you were holding me near
Seven days, it feels like a year
You whisper through the line you know I miss you like crazy
So baby can you steal a plane
A boat, the fastest train
You know it just don’t feel the same when you’re gone
‘Cause everytime you go away
The sunshine starts to fade
Frozen by the hands of time into a permanent Monday
Take me back into your arms
And don’t ever let me go
‘Cause when I see you walk through that door
I’m not lost anymore
I’m home
I’m home
I won’t sleep until you’re finally next to me
Can’t wait to breathe you in don’t wanna waste my time dreaming
I just wanna treat your name like
A whisper on my skin and never have to say goodbye again
‘Cause everytime you go away
The sunshine starts to fade
Frozen by the hands of time into a permanent Monday
Take me back into your arms
And don’t ever let me go
‘Cause when I see you walk through that door
I’m not lost anymore
I’m home
‘Cause when I feel you right here close to me
Everything is where it’s supposed to be
& SORRY FOR THE TIMES I'VE BEEN BAD.
0033,
1312
CURRENTLY: -SAME-
yes, i know i arent listening to my mom. awhile. emo.
YOU'RE GOING AWAY AGAIN.
WHEN YOU JUST CAME BACK.
WHEN I JUST CAME BACK.
I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I MISS YOU ALOT ALOT.
WE WONT HAVE MANY CHANCES NEXT YEAR ALREADY.
I FEEL UNCERTAIN TOO, MAYBE YOU'LL CHANGE.
MAYBE YOU'RE ALREADY CHANGING.
I THOUGHT IT WAS A SIMPLE REQUEST BUT I DONT KNOW.
YOU'RE LEAVING NEXT WEEK AND IDK WHEN YOU'RE COMING BACK AGAIN.
HOLS ENDING, AND WE'RE NEVER GONNA GET TO GO OUT PROPERLY.
SUDDENLY I WISH THAT WE WERE LIKE BEFORE, WHEN WE WERE TOGETHER FOR ALMOST EVERYDAY.
HOPE ALL TURNS OUT WELL.
Falling leaves like a blanket at my feet
There’s a canopy of stars and I just miss you like crazy
Suddenly the world’s too big
And the hours move too slow and I just wish that you were holding me near
Seven days, it feels like a year
You whisper through the line you know I miss you like crazy
So baby can you steal a plane
A boat, the fastest train
You know it just don’t feel the same when you’re gone
‘Cause everytime you go away
The sunshine starts to fade
Frozen by the hands of time into a permanent Monday
Take me back into your arms
And don’t ever let me go
‘Cause when I see you walk through that door
I’m not lost anymore
I’m home
I’m home
I won’t sleep until you’re finally next to me
Can’t wait to breathe you in don’t wanna waste my time dreaming
I just wanna treat your name like
A whisper on my skin and never have to say goodbye again
‘Cause everytime you go away
The sunshine starts to fade
Frozen by the hands of time into a permanent Monday
Take me back into your arms
And don’t ever let me go
‘Cause when I see you walk through that door
I’m not lost anymore
I’m home
‘Cause when I feel you right here close to me
Everything is where it’s supposed to be
& SORRY FOR THE TIMES I'VE BEEN BAD.
8:25 AM;